The Paralympic gold medalist — who is serving 13 years and five months in a South African prison for the shooting of Reeva Steenkamp — told a friend that he’s desperate for his apology to be accepted, The Sun reported.
“I want to tell them I’m sorry,” the killer athlete said, according to pal and ex-teacher Bill Schroder.
“What he really, really wants is forgiveness,” Schroder told the outlet. “He is more concerned about forgiveness than actually getting out on parole.”
While serving out his time, Pistorius, 33, has grown a beard and found his faith, said Schroder, who’s visited his friend four times in prison.
He’s also given up exercise and started smoking, according to his pal.
The double-amputee Olympian shot Steenkamp, a 29-year-old model and budding reality-TV star, through a bathroom door inside his home in Pretoria, South Africa on Valentine’s Day in 2013.
The prosecution charged that Pistorius intentionally blasted his girlfriend four times after the couple had an argument.
But Pistorius claimed he woke up and opened fire thinking Steenkamp was an intruder — a defense he’s stuck with to this day, according to Schroder.
“He still maintains to this day it was an accident,” Schroder told The Sun. “I did feel he was showing remorse.”
“He quoted a study by an expert that when you are woken from a deep sleep and are put into a situation of fear that you act very differently to when fully conscious. I listened to him but did not buy it.”
Pistorius was initially convicted of manslaughter in 2014, but that conviction was overturned and replaced with a murder conviction.
In 2018, Steenkamp’s mother June said she had forgiven Pistorius but still wanted him punished.